feigning a smile.

growth, as it is.

this may be stupid and ridiculous, but it's stupidly and ridiculously funny. at least i feel that way anyway, but as previously mentioned i'm a happy idiot, so don't take my word for it.

possibly NSFW, if you're the sensitive type. it's probably more stupid, than NSFW however.

about me. again.

i realized something today. or yesterday. or was it tomorrow?

uh, whenever it was/is/will that i realized this, it's insignificant.


I am, generally speaking, an idiot.
However, i am also, hypothetically speaking, a happy idiot.
With a life that's, relatively speaking, almost close to perfect.
With acquaintances who are, honestly speaking, awesome.
I can live with that.
What more could a guy ask for right?
What more could an idiot dream for?

Cheers to being a content, happy fool.

=)

SMILE!!! =)

NOTE: this is an exaggeration of everything. you have been warned.

don't stop. never stop. ever.

Thanks. Really.

i've realized something. i'm an ungrateful son of a schlag.

there's so many things in life to be thankful of that it's plain obvious i'm an idiot for being oblivious to them.
really i've sulked for too long, dwelling on every single shit that comes along.

time to take a new initiative, gain a new perspective.
life's just too short for thinking of crap all the time. hell life's too short for anything really, but wasting it on misery is one heck of a way to ruin your life.

Can You Feel It In The Air Tonight?

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord 
I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, Oh Lord 
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord 

Well, if you told me you were drowning 
I would not lend a hand 
I've seen your face before my friend 
But I don't know if you know who I am 
Well, I was there and I saw what you did 
I saw it with my own two eyes 
So you can wipe off the grin, I know where you've been 
It's all been a pack of lies 

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord 
I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, Oh Lord 
I can feel it in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord 
And I've been waiting for this moment all my life, Oh Lord, Oh Lord 

Well I remember, I remember don't worry 
How could I ever forget, it's the first time, the last time we ever met 
But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you don't fool me 
The hurt doesn't show; but the pain still grows 
It's no stranger to you or me 

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord... 


by Phil Collins


a perfect song for a dark, cool, lonely night. 
is this the moment? can you feel it as i do?
is it in the air tonight?


p.s. yes i have no idea what to write. so i spout lyrics i love instead.

Unconquered Words: The Fall

he was once human.

yet too long has he been bounded.

shackled by these steel bonds that hold him.

no more.

today he breaks free.

today he is released from this earth.

the wings of freedom were his today.

his to spread.

his to unveil.

he hears the whispers of his benefactor: "careful, careful".

but the words were lost to him.

they were a haze, a blur that mattered not.

the rush of the wind was upon him.

he gently raises his wings, testing each stroke.

he begins to rise.

slowly, yet surely.

he soars through the skies.

words forgotten, warnings unheeded.

who, after all was worthy of his time?

he was no longer a man.

no longer confined to the realms of mortals.

he was a king amongst peasants.

a god amongst men.

he glides with grace.

with power as his only purpose.

he was with the clouds.

treading realms forbidden to men.

his was the dream of men.

his was the stuff of legends.

nothing else matters.

or so he believed.

he rises again and again.

above the hills,

the mountains,

and eventually the stars.

he was truly a god, 

for was he not sailing through the ocean of immortals?

he had not a care in the world.

for what god cared of the lands beneath?

yet somehow within his reverie,

upon the deepest recesses of his mind,

he could not escape the nagging of worry,

words once spoken yet could not be remembered.

what were they?

who had uttered them?

and then he remembered.

they were the wisdom of one who loved him.

one who gave the world for him.

one who granted him his wings, his godhood.

yet he had ignored him.

ungrateful of the gifts showered upon him.

he longed to return.

to ask forgiveness.

yet he realized in his heart that it was too late.

for he saw the rising of a chariot.

he had gone too far.

beyond the reaches of safety.

and then he felt the scorch of Apollo crossing the skies.

he struggled.

but in his heart he knew.

the Fates were today against him.

for had he not ignored them as well?

as the fiery chariot approaches.

he stares into the depths of Hades.

and understands his doom.

for it was he who had chosen it.

as his wings finally burn.

as the pits of Hades open to embrace him.

his thoughts were this:

so falls Icarus the fool.

so falls Icarus the vain.

so falls Icarus the ignorant.

but perhaps worst of all,

so falls Icarus the lonely.

and then he plummets into the void.

and returns into dust.

so ends the tale of Icarus.

ever proud, ever free.

yet ever alone.

by Invictus92, ever unconquered.

edit: thanks to mr. L for pointing stuff out!!! :D

Unconquered NerdGeek: A Long Time Ago, In A Galaxy Far, Far Away.

enough emo BS. time to shutdown that part of the brain.
on to more useless crap that are kriffin' simultaneously cool and pointless to know.
in this case, the Star Wars universe!!!

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Ah, so that's how you get from Coruscant to kriffin' Korriban.

time to learn the Dark Side of the Force with those Holocrons!!!

Peace is a lie. There is only passion.

Through passion, I gain strength.

Through strength, I gain power.

Through power, I gain victory.

Through victory, my chains are broken.

The Force shall set me free.

-Darth Bane, Dark Lord of The Sith-

credits to io9 (io9.com) for pointing me to this.
and credits to wookiepedia (http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/Main_Page) for the Sith code.

Unconquered Voices: Ready to Fall

Hold on slow down again from the top now and tell me everything

I know I've been gone for what seems like forever

But I'm here now waiting

To convince you that I'm not a ghost or a stranger

But closer than you think

She said, "just go on to what you

Pretend is your life but

Please don't die on me"

Wings won't take me

Heights don't phase me

So take a step

But don't look down 

Take a step

Now I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

I think I'm at the edge now but I could be wrong

I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

Perpetual motion the image won't focus

A blur is all that's seen

But here in this moment like the eye of the storm

It all came clear to me

I found a shoulder to lean on

An infallible reason to live all by itself

I took one last look from the heights that I once loved

And then I ran like hell

Wings won't take me

Heights don't phase me

So take a step

But don't look down 

Take a step

Now I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

I think I'm at the edge now but I could be wrong

I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

I count the times that I've been sorry

I know, I know

Now my compassion slowly drowns

I know, I know

If there's a time these walls could guard you

I know, I know

Then let that time be right now

Now I'm standing on the rooftop

Now I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

I think I'm at the edge now but I could be wrong

I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall

Now I'm standing on the rooftop (ready to fall)

by Rise Against

i want to fall. 

fall forever. into nothingness. into darkness.

and leave all this behind.

i'm ready.

forget about it.

i'm reclusive when it comes to feelings. my problems aren't for anybody else to bear.  they're mine to go through, and not for others to suffer.

so don't fucking ask me in real life, i'll just deny everything. i'd rather keep bullshit locked away safely in a vault within the deepest recesses of my pathetic mind.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Screw it. I've had enough.

I

JUST

DON'T

FUCKING

CARE

there, i've said it.

untitled

Unconquered NerdGeek: If They Existed, I'd Sell My Soul For Them

well, not really.

maybe a small portion.
wait, i'm getting ahead  of myself, i haven't even told what i'd sell my soul for yet.

weapons. awesome, fictional weapons that don't exist. and i want them.
wait, how come everything i want doesn't exist? i'm such a dreamer!!!

oh well, a guy can still dream right? you better not say no you bloody realists!!!


alright then, straight to business. this post is simply a list of weapons from various fictional sources that i want, yet can't have. at least not in this lifetime. maybe i'll ask for some if i get to heaven. and that is one BIG if.

Unconquered Rants: Bipolar?

alright, so tomorrow's the final paper for my current exam. so that's the good news.
unfortunately, the paper is Chemistry II, which i suck at, badly. that's the bad news.

so should i smile because it's the last paper of the term? or do i cry because it's the one i hate most?

nah, i think i'll be bipolar instead.

p.s. all the best people. let's finish this crap and then enjoy ourselves before the 8 month torture fest begins.

Unconquered Voices: I Ain't Got Nobody!!!!!!!!!!

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
when the end comes i know, that i'm just a gigolo, life goes on without me. cause;
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII AIN'T GOT NOBODYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
damn that's a good song to wake up to.

screw whatever ad it was that used this.
there was, and will always be, only one DAVID LEE ROTH!!!
go Van Halen!!!

p.s. won't some sweet mama, take a chance with me, cause i an't so bad? you said it, mr. Roth!!!

PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI

damn that |v|00t for this atrocity all those weeks ago!!!

arghhh it's too infectious!!!

!!!immunity system failure imminent!!!

PUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDIPUDDI

GIGA PUDDING!!!

yes we can PUDDI PUDDI PUDDI

that damn /b/tard 

Unconquered NerdGeek: Ahoy Ye Plundering Messiah!!!

ok. this is officially the most awesome image i've seen.

  read: lie

PirateBay should use this.

it explains so much.

so,

so much.

p.s. screw the authorities. as Pennywise rightly says: F**K AUTHORITY!!! 

censored for the sake of our future generation that may stumble on this looking for other, more adult content

credit to these guys for highlighting it.

Unconquered Days: (I Get By) With A Little Help From My Friends

wait. it's 7.11 a.m.*?
it's still morning?
what the heck am i doing awake??? class is at 3 pm!
i must be either nuts or i seriously have nothing to do.
ah well, seeing as i'm here anyway guess i'll write something that no one will read!!!

*it was when i started writing, then this became a tl;dr post.

WARNING: tl;dr post. unless you have totally nothing else to do in life like me, ignore this.

over the course of the past month life's been well, fun.
(ignoring of course, the fact that my academic life is on the brink of disaster but that's neither here nor there)
it's been a blast actually. i, miraculously have new friends. even more miraculously, i have AWESOME new friends.
i mean, seriously. somehow these super duper ultra awesome people actually want to talk to me.
or maybe i'm delusional .
or maybe i'm delusional thinking that i'm delusional.
or maybe...enough maybe's already you faggot!!! -facepalm-

anyway...
so yeah, i have friends. and have i told you (whoever you are) they're awesome?
i have? with caps lock on?
oh yeah i guess i have. just making sure you got how AWESOME my friends are.

apparently, they have a limitless source of untapped energy that keeps that going till the dawn of a new day.
how we can go on for hours and hours every week travelling where no man has been before (ok, that's a lie) i have no idea. and said untapped energy is contagious! they make even koala-lazy me last longer than an hour without falling asleep. somehow, we could waste our nights away laughing our heads off completely disregarding the innocent sleeping masses around us whether it's walking by the beach, or sprouting nonsense at McDonald's at 4 a.m., thrashing the playground at the zoo, or planning disastrous completely expected birthday surprises, the time spent with these 5 individuals are among the most memorable moments of my (almost) adult life.

seeing as they probably won't read this, i guess i could write all the crap i think about the aforementioned 5 individuals. plus, it's new year. and i have nothing better to do before the WiFi here goes kaput.

this actually took a while to finish. it's difficult to describe awesome when you have no idea what that's like.